Once I finished my chemo, I began the monthly, bi-monthly and then every four month visits. Each time I went in for the checkup, I was glad to still have someone monitoring me but at the same time always felt just a little apprehensive about the outcome of each visit. I also found myself paranoid about every little ache or pain that I would have. My doctor reassured me that if the pain goes away, calm down. If it last two weeks or more, call in. I have lived by that. When I experience a new pain, I try to find the cause and wait for it to go away. I have to live my life as normal as I can and have to believe that God is not finished with me yet. I remind myself to live the calling He called me to and enjoy life.
Tuesday I went to my last four month checkup and have graduated to every six month checkups. As always, I am relieved there is no new evidence of cancer and very grateful.
I love the verse in Philippians 3: 13,14
Forgetting the past and straining toward what is ahead,
14 I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize for which God called me through Christ to the life above.
I daily remind myself to forget enough to live but remember enough to take care of myself.
